Thursday, February 19, 2009
11:28 PM
I think i am really weird.
There is always NO reason for my hibernation mood.
Its like once a month i'll go into my hibernation
mood when i don't really wanna do anything. I
just wna go and do what i have to do and then
get out of the place asap. I don't wna leave my
house for too long, even if i have nothing to do at
home. It seems like during that time i get scared
of going out. Like yknow i will melt if i walk out of my door.
&i really hate talking, i try my best to avoid talking cos
i just wna be alone.
Yes, i know super weird man.
&i'm like iN super hibernation mode now.
I dknw what triggered it when i seemed fine just
a few days ago, maybe its been lingering inside me
all along just waiting to erupt. I am SO, SO, SO
sick of everything, for no particular reason.
I don't care even if i knew what i huge mistake i did for
my Bio SPA, usually i'd be freaking out pulling
my hair out and going, ' shit, i'm so gna die'
But today i'm just like "ohokay, i got that wrong, big
deal'
&i feel horrible cos ytd i was in ): mood and Rainer was
in super (: mood, so he kept talking to me but
i kept doing what i do best, i ignored him and just went
'Uhmmm, okay' and he still bought fancy gems for
me! See what a (^&%#@* person i am!!!
I willwillwill be nicer to him.
&it seems like i forgot how to write a good essay.
I was wrecking my brains to come up with nice sentences
during english, and the only few good ones were like :O
Like this crap :
"the world lapsed into slow motion as ... realised it was a fait accompli"
&my essay, i bet was some shit.
cos i didn't know what to write!
So i just got bits and pieces and pieced them all together like a
jigsaw puzzle.
Ohwell, at least i passed history test.
and got to eat orange bowl and didn't
sleep in school today and ate finish my fancy gems
and learnt some new chinese words.
I'm going to hide under my blanky.
